We have all hedged that safe bet, quite possibly a hundred times over. We dared not to risk losing it all by trusting in that which would provide the majority of what we have been longing for. Far too few of us are willing to put the fulfillment of our deepest desires into jeopardy. We mark our boundaries at the outset of emerging threats to our happiness. But who of us will push through such dangers and give up what feels like everything for even the potential of something greater? A sad sickness stirs within me as I dwell upon all those times when I have gone the path of least resistance and refused to hold out for more (even if there was no promise of keeping anything at all). But when my own heart is placed on the line and the die is cast for a lot that includes my future, nothing remains that would keep me silent any longer. None of us wants to lose it all, and we want something to promise us real life. But will we ever become truly settled with something that we could have seen deepen and mature down the road? Better to possess something that would give us a name than to take a chance which could leave us feeling exposed, or having come up empty. There are forces beyond our control that push us into those moments in which we pledge safety as our guide. Our self-made shelters seem to be giving us what we require. No point in chancing the loss of any one of them. Unless... unless we could find something closer to our hearts. Unless we could find something that does far more than simply get us through the day and make us feel tolerated. We long for real beauty - will we hold out for it? We desire the passion of another - will we do what that requires, even if it costs us moments of life itself? We want life in full color - will we reject the half dozen shades that we have taught ourselves to endure? Then safety will have to be cast off for the sake of finding our heart's delight. But it will cost us, for the life that is worth defending first takes a fight to take hold of.
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
.: sickness from safety :.
We have all hedged that safe bet, quite possibly a hundred times over. We dared not to risk losing it all by trusting in that which would provide the majority of what we have been longing for. Far too few of us are willing to put the fulfillment of our deepest desires into jeopardy. We mark our boundaries at the outset of emerging threats to our happiness. But who of us will push through such dangers and give up what feels like everything for even the potential of something greater? A sad sickness stirs within me as I dwell upon all those times when I have gone the path of least resistance and refused to hold out for more (even if there was no promise of keeping anything at all). But when my own heart is placed on the line and the die is cast for a lot that includes my future, nothing remains that would keep me silent any longer. None of us wants to lose it all, and we want something to promise us real life. But will we ever become truly settled with something that we could have seen deepen and mature down the road? Better to possess something that would give us a name than to take a chance which could leave us feeling exposed, or having come up empty. There are forces beyond our control that push us into those moments in which we pledge safety as our guide. Our self-made shelters seem to be giving us what we require. No point in chancing the loss of any one of them. Unless... unless we could find something closer to our hearts. Unless we could find something that does far more than simply get us through the day and make us feel tolerated. We long for real beauty - will we hold out for it? We desire the passion of another - will we do what that requires, even if it costs us moments of life itself? We want life in full color - will we reject the half dozen shades that we have taught ourselves to endure? Then safety will have to be cast off for the sake of finding our heart's delight. But it will cost us, for the life that is worth defending first takes a fight to take hold of.
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Sounds like the one who sold all that he had and bought a field because he knew there was a treasure buried in it. That man did this with great joy. Seems like when we find our "heart connection" that no price is to great to pay. We'll cease to play it safe.
ReplyDeleteNicely done Dave. Saftey is a seductive god indeeed. Belive it or not, I have worshipped her more than I want to admit or am even aware of. these days, with little to lose of the props and status, I say saftey has failed me. Thankfully, and again she let me down. It was an expensive drop.
ReplyDeleteTo forsake Saftey will and does cost, as you say. Those who continue to worship her bankrupt fantacys of security and sameness, will resent those who see through the blindness to the realitys beyond. They will hate those who say "It is a fantacy for the low minded, cowards and young." They will hate those who embrase the real Gospel that dismantles saftey. The ones who read Scripture without the arrogance of North American 21st century white goggles on. To bump anothers idol is to volunteer to be the central charactor of an antiquated and tired OT scapegoat doctrine.
If I get your point...you have once again, seen truth with eyes that see past the smoke of saftey, order and systems to the heart of Jesus. Real beauty awaits you. but as with all beauty.....it does not become that way without pain. No art costs nothing. someone stepped outside of saftey to create. See Gen 1. I am glad He was not careful.
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Mark