.: the importance of being alone :.

We are far too distracted from the discipline of healthy introspection when we get caught up in the flood of maintaining relationships. There is an inner dialogue that eventually begins to rise up, questioning if you really are who you once saw yourself to be. The lens of your mind’s eye develops some sort of steam on it, and you find little to no time to deal with it. Eventually you grow to take your temperature from other people’s reaction to your antics, all the while wondering if you are selling little pieces of your heart for the sake of good interactions. You breathe a sigh of relief when potential time alone presents itself, only to have it stolen by the “ought to” or “always have”. Rest will hopefully make its way to you soon – the chance of finding some is unlikely. You need this. You need time to take your own pulse and to set yourself straight once again. You need to trace your steps, and if the need be, discover how you have ended up in this particular place. No one is going to fight for that “space” for you, not even the ones you give yourself for. Especially them. But you will not be able to give what you do not realize you even possess. Not if you don’t somehow find the time. Schedules and routines have a way of running you at their own demanding pace. But do not accept the obligation to live like that without some sort of necessary compromise. Leave them wanting more. Give them time to themselves. Make that call and take the heat for seeming to be the more unloving of you both. You need to know who you are. You need to recall where you are heading. You must see the subtle compromises that may have been made to find what you were looking for. And you need to settle all bets, to betray those alliances that are stealing life from you, and to recollect the strength and confidence that is your own – that which no one else but the Father has placed within you.