.: love concluded continued :.

The rumors confirmed
Never has a whisper hurt so much
An absolutely crushing blow
Though I took it all in stride
Words of affirmation
But my heart has heard clearly
Myself to blame
A heart that made up it's mind
Beauty captured
And lost
A sound defeat
Coming from a friend
I tried with some strength
But never committed to the thought
Sighs in the deepest of depths
I had thought this one possibly
Thoughts still linger
My heart was maybe always there
But fearful and hesitant all together
To see them there
Intertwined as I had hoped for
Maybe I care for her
More than I can take
More than I care to find out
I was praying
In the hopes that He would come through
Now I stratch together
Reasons to doubt
Was He ever for me?
Must every hopeful dawning
Be reduced to shadows and storms
Her touch is captured in my mind
For me to play over in days to come
Would I take it all back?
Play it different down the road?
Maybe it took such loss to answer my hope
Or to silence the prospect of moving further
Beautiful as it may be
My dreams almost seem
As if to be the deepest that I ever could touch
Myself to blame
No doubt from here on out
The choice falls upon me
It will have to come from my very core
The secrets only deepen
And my heart withdraws
With sincerity and approval
For it seems like what I hoped for all along.